I no longer have access to someone's wireless connection at home, and I've been WAY too busy at work to blog from there.
And I have lost my focus. I have to remember why I started this blog in the first place.
Before I started here I enjoyed reading three kinds of blogs: self-help, single moms, and personal finance. The plethora of these blogs got me through some seriously dark days and some really lonely weekends.
When I found myself ready and willing to start posting my own, I wanted to come up with a combination of the three. With a fourth element, the Canadian bias.
Mostly, I was tired of trying to find inspiration in PF blogs written by one half of a couple. I don't have a problem with couples, but I can't tell you how many told me in their blogs, "WE paid off a $20 000 debt in just TWO years!"
I'm on my own here, and no one is going to help me pay off my debt. As well I can't work more for extra income because I'm a single mom to a three-year-old. I have enough guilt in me for putting him in daycare at ten months old.
I'm fortunate that I have help in the way of childcare subsidy, child support (not court-mandated) and student loan interest relief. Also I keep our expenses as low as I possibly can with the help of amazing hand-me-down clothes from an aunt of Bean's dad. I don't buy many snacks or take-out foods, and I use the community food box program to supplement the grocery bills.
I feel like I'm losing focus. I'm tired. I'm paying off the $20 000 debt one month at a time and trying my best most of the time. Sometimes I want to say "f&*k it" and run away.
I need to keep my attitude of gratitude in check, because at the end of the day that's what gets me through the night.